one of those sad moments.

you know that feeling where something, anything happens and it just ruins your mood completely and it changes it to something you do not want?

that feeling where all you wanna do is crawl into bed and go to sleep?

right now I wanna do just that; go to my bed, cuddle with my boyfriend, maybe have a comfort food or watch The Office, and go to sleep. hide away from the world by covering myself with my yellow comforter, and try to forget feeling like this. maybe even cry out of anger.

ugh. I feel so little.

And not in the child-like way. i mean the there-are-people-who-are-better-and-bigger-than-you sad way.

I even feel embarrassed. And for a prideful person like myself, embarrassment is not  something I can easily deal with. Should I try to suck it up ?

I’m writing this as a form to vent and in hopes that putting it out there will make feel not like this. Although I’m not sure if it is working or making me more self conscious. Oh well, it’s out there.

an afternoon with alexander, angelica, david, & my pentax

almost a month ago I received on the mail a pentax film camera from the 70s that david got for me.  it is so so pretty. the moment I pulled it out the box I fell in love with it. i couldn’t stop thanking david enough.

here are some photos I took with it that I wanted to share with you guys:)

aren’t my models the best? I love it when I capture pictures of David laughing.

I still need to play with my camera a little bit more, and maybe even try a different photo lab, but overall I was happy with the results. bothering grumpy alexander and telling him not to eat my shoe is always fun.

happy wednesday!

diana

photos taken in our univesity, david’s house, and my front yard with a Pentax MX using Fujifilm Superia X-TRA 400 35mm film.

september photo challenge: week five

I can’t believe we’re already gonna go into october! like what, halloween already?! :O (I’m kind of excited for that holiday, to be honest!) but still, woah.. anyway, this is week five of my photo challenge :) hope you like it!

DAY 21 – FACELESS SELF PORTRAIT
almost faceless, with david’s face on my lens
DAY 22 – SOMETHING GREEN
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delicious-looking green apples
DAY 23 – PATTERNS
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trip to the comic book store with the boyfriend and his brother
DAY 24 – PET
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one of my pets, max the pug, sleeping in my bed.
DAY 25 – TECHNOLOGY
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..it impresses me so much.

the challenge I got the idea from here. previous photo challenges for this month here.

I hope you have good day :)

diana

farmer’s market: september

the other day I stumbled upon this picture of the first time my boyfriend and I went to our local farmer’s market. it made me miss it and want to go. all of the food and the fun him and I had –that was a good day!

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then last saturday I woke up at 9 am randomly, like something told me to wake up. I look at my phone and it has a notification saying “farmer’s market today!” so I had to tell david and an hour later we were on our way. oh how he spoils me even when he’s half asleep! <3

 

boyfriend had many taquitos, I had a corn and a lemon paleta. happy, happy campers! :)

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so we passed by a floor full of chalk drawings and i mean…how could we say no!?

my work of art: celebrating my pug’s birthday!
david’s artwork: a very happy poop :D!

I took my minolta with me and shot some photos of this day + the buildings around us. I would gladly share them..but I’m a very lazy human that hasn’t developed that film yet, sorry, hah! david took his lego star wars minifigures and shot several pictures too! (you can follow him on instagram here!)

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ok, I don’t know how this is gonna sound, but you know don’t know how happy it made me to see that someone made and sold natural deodorants in my hometown (and in such a cute packaging!). in case you’re interested: it works, it smells good, you can make your own by following recipes online,  and best of all: it’s not bad for your body. yay!

oh, and that orange mason jar is a carrot cake for my grandma! it smelled soo good!

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the sky looked so pretty that day. we just had to go on the rooftop again.

I love local events. I’m glad David likes them too.

well, until next time friends :) thanks for stopping by!

diana & david

I feel bad for artists.

Any artist.
Designers, painters, musicians, you name it.

Not a lot of people get their work.
Not a lot of people appreciate all of the hours put into that project plus all the hours of practice needed to get that technique; all of that detail they managed to create, all of the things they had to do to get final result.

I mean, don’t get me wrong, there are people out there who are great enthusiasts of art. But art, even in its most minimalistic form, is sometimes not stopped and admired.
And that really sucks.

Support local artists. Attend museum exhibits. Encourage these wonderful creators.

september photo challenge: week four

DAY 16 – A GOOD HABIT
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altruism.
DAY 17 – A LUXURY
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owning a car.
DAY 18 – SHOES
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my dirty, in-need-of-a-wash, but super comfortable white converse
DAY 19 – WANT
my red hair and my cartilage piecing back so bad
my red hair and my cartilage piecing back so bad!
DAY 20 – IN MY BAG
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i may never forget this, but I do forget my keys and my phone charger. oops.

if each of my weeks had a theme, I would say this one was possessions. it might be a little vain, but it was fun to take pictures and it made me even more grateful for the stuff I’ve received.

you should try a photo challenge. it’s fun! / the one I’m sort of following here / photos taken with my phone and camera.

happy wednesday!

diana

my mother made me obsessed with snoopy

so I was exploring etsy, looking for a birthday gift for my mother, when I came across with this:

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listing on photo.

this plate, ladies and gentlemen, which may seem to you as just a wacky snoopy plate is actually  part of my childhood! I had one just like that, and I have vivid memories of my mother serving me my favorite foods on it. I even remember washing it and it being in the different places we lived in when I was a child.

if my phone wasn’t dead right now I would be sending my mother pictures and we would both be trying to remember where the heck we left it! my guess is: it’s in grandma’s house and it might be chipped :(

my mother was born in ’66, I was born in ’94, the listing for the plate says ’65 – this leaves me with the questions: did it belong to my mother before it belonged to me, or did they still make these when I was a child and she just purchased one then?

ooh, the questions, the feels, the memories!

even though that little clown snoopy is screaming my name and bringing childhood flashbacks to buy it, i don’t know if I will.

I just can’t believe I found it! I had completely forgotten about its existence. wow! I can’t wait to get home and show this to my mom!

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has something like this ever happened to you? are you as obsessed as my mother and I are with this little white dog? are you going to watch the movie when it comes out?

ahh, i’m just too excited! have a very nice day :)

diana

anatomy class

I just dissected a cat!
Well, skinned one and looked at it’s muscles. We’re opening him up another day.
He was a black male cat, and my lab partner and I named it Sheldon.
It was a really neat experience to do so. It was a little sad at first but later you see the educational value.

I just wanted to write about it because I came out of class and was so excited :)

p.s: my anatomy lab professor said it we had the best dissection in class so far!
p.s.s: I’m passing both his class and the lab! yay!!

p.s.s.s: (too many s’) if I knew how to do yoga, I would be be doing some right now. I am sitting in a bench in school next to trees and it’s empty and there is a lot of fresh air running. it is so relaxing. I needed that. I just wished a had a burger with me right now..

have a nice weekend! and if you have a burger, enjoy it cuz I’m jealous of you!

– diana

september photo challenge: week three

DAY 11 – CELEBRATION
boyfriend's 22nd
he turned twenty-two <3
DAY 12 – AN ADVENTURE
photo from almost a year ago when we went to the rooftop of a building and enjoyed the view even if it was cold
photo I found from almost a year ago when we went to the rooftop of a building downtown after our first visit to the farmer’s market. I love it.
DAY 13 – CANNOT LIVE WITHOUT
a camera.
..a camera.
DAY 14 – EYES
one makeupless eye
one tired eye.
DAY 15 – CHANGES TO COME
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I don’t know but I have a good feeling for next year when I turn 22.. I hope good things come.

photo challenge I’m (sort of) following here.

photos from my phone and david’s phone. (except the last one. owner’s link on picture.)

happy friday friends! :) – diana

can I already get to that point in my life…

  • where I know what I am doing for a career so I don’t keep guessing what path to take next.
  • where I don’t have to write pointless essays.

cuz that would be great..

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I love school, but I really, really hate essays.

And I hate not knowing where I am going to end working.

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I just want to live with my boyfriend

in a little apartment in a big city,

have many guinea pigs,

and have a job that makes me happy

and that shows my skills.

don’t we all!

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I am not in a rush to graduate though.

again, since I don’t know where I am heading.

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for now,

I live at home with my guinea pigs,

I see my boyfriend often,

have a job in a place where I am a leader,

am in college,

and I write essays.

but I’m happy.

september photo challenge: week two

i told myself i was gonna post these photos every five days to have enough for the whole 30 days in september. but i’ve been bad about it :( school has been getting tougher and tougher. this week, for example, i have tests and reports almost daily. it’s horrible, but i’m surviving! i miss writing for my little blog though. so today i took a little time to bring you something i was supposed to post saturday. (oops). not that i am forced or anything, but i love doing so, and writing this + reading your blog posts makes me happy and gives a break from writing reports and memorizing things i’ll probably forget next week, sadly. so, without further ado, the second week of my september photo challenge! :)


DAY 6 – AFTER DARK
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picture my boyfriend took of the moon with a $5 telescope we found in goodwill.
DAY 7 – SOMEONE THAT INSPIRES YOU
grandpa. forever.
grandpa. forever.
DAY 8 – ROUTINE
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my uni’s library, where I spend more of my day
DAY 9 – SOMEONE YOU LOVE
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two someones I love: napo and david
DAY 10 – CHILDHOOD MEMORY
grandparent’s house

photo challenge i’m following here (although i changed most of it to make it my own). pictures from my boyfriend’s iphone and my white diana mini.

have a nice week. diana :)

I cut my own hair!

after watching several ponderous videos on YouTube (half of one that appeared on my What To Watch, actually) on how to self-cut hair, I was curious about the idea of cutting mine. I’ve been wanting to get a hair cut for a while now. I just haven’t gone. no reason. maybe just that I’m lazy to go to the salon and get it cut?
well, laziness aside, yesterday night around 1 am I got the crazies, my sowing scissors, and chopped off 4 fingers all around!
It’s not the first time I get impulses to cut my hair. I always cut my bangs whenever I feel like it. (even if my hair dresser gets mad at me for doing so.) in January I actually went back to bangs I hadn’t styled since elementary school (post here) and they didn’t turn out bad!
in july I dyed it red myself with the help of my sister and a L’Oreal hair dye box, after getting the idea from a blogger (easily-influenced, me). I loved it despite of the damage it did to my hair and the mess it created in my restroom.
but this is different! I’ve never cut my entire hair :o it looks the same, almost, just with more layers in the bottom.
i’m happy though. bye damaged ends!! and yay for saving money!
wait til I tell my mom. she’ll freak! :D

happy tuesday! — diana

p.s. – i want pancakes so bad! maybe i can used the money i saved on going to the salon to get some…hmm ;)

watching over little napoleon at night

My little baby.

I loooooove him!<3

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peek-a-boo!   
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bed head

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I know he seems alright, but I was scared that maybe he was sick cuz I had offered him watermelon and he didn’t want it when he usually loves it, and he didn’t even come out of his bed when I called him when he’s usually the first one to wheek and run toward me. Then I brought cilantro and he only ate some. Linda ate both the watermelon and the cilantro and she ran to my feet when I called her name, in comparison.

I’ll keep an eye on him tonight. I think he was just tired or not hungry. Maybe it’s even his teeth that hurt, I don’t know. He’s a pretty big sleeper at night, so I hope it’s that. Either way he’s sleeping with me tonight just in case. (I keep peeking under my comforter to see him. He comes out and sleeps next to me occasionally. Right now he’s next to me foot.)

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My poor baby. I hope you’re fine. :(

my first photo challenge

Years ago, I saw people started to do these monthly photo challenges in Instagram.  I was interested but never actually did one. The other day in Pinterest I saw one again and I liked it, so I decided to do it for this September.

Instead of posting a photo everyday I’m going to share seven pictures in a post every week. That way it’s not overwhelming to my blog, and I could share what I saw that week comfortably and look forward to the day I write and share them with you :)

Here’s the challenge I’ll be following:

If you want to join me, go right ahead! :D And let me know so I can check out your pictures! If you wanna change a day up a bit, go for it, so will I, most likely :) Just have fun with it!

Happy Tuesday!

– diana

seeing old friends

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That’s boyfriend, myself, and our friend Andy having brunch in IHOP.

Oh, how we love Andy! If I were a mom, I would want my kid to be just like him. So nice, helpful, respectful. The epitome of a good person.

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We also love his company. So when the opportunity to see him presented itself (since we don’t really see each other cuz he’s in another city for college), we took it! I love this kid and his sense of humor – can’t say it enough!

After leaving IHOP and saying good bye to Andy, as he was about to go on the road, David and I went back to my house to pick up a package I had just received: the Minolta XG7! Ah, so excited to try it out!

Later, David picked up his two band members, they ate, loaded up their instruments and we all went to a bar where they played for the night. They had beer and played us their music, I had a drink and took some videos. (I also studied for anatomy cuz I felt bad for not doing so, but can you blame me? Too many terms!)

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Monday morning in school I’m sitting in the library’s computer lab and I see a familiar figure coming in. It was my high school best friend, Esteban. I approached him and he sat next to me and caught up a bit. I like it when we talk. I don’t, nor do I think I will ever, exactly know why we stopped talking much after high school. We had a really good brother-sister relationship.

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I don’t know about you, but there’s nothing like seeing old, long-time good friends. The conversations, the history, the jokes, everything. Even if we meet new people or live far away from each other or are each busy with our lives, we can still get together one afternoon and laugh like only a day passed since we last saw each other. And I find that fucking awesome and it makes me happy.

I love my friends. I hope we keep seeing each other like this.