you know that feeling where something, anything happens and it just ruins your mood completely and it changes it to something you do not want?
that feeling where all you wanna do is crawl into bed and go to sleep?
right now I wanna do just that; go to my bed, cuddle with my boyfriend, maybe have a comfort food or watch The Office, and go to sleep. hide away from the world by covering myself with my yellow comforter, and try to forget feeling like this. maybe even cry out of anger.
ugh. I feel so little.
And not in the child-like way. i mean the there-are-people-who-are-better-and-bigger-than-you sad way.
I even feel embarrassed. And for a prideful person like myself, embarrassment is not something I can easily deal with. Should I try to suck it up ?
I’m writing this as a form to vent and in hopes that putting it out there will make feel not like this. Although I’m not sure if it is working or making me more self conscious. Oh well, it’s out there.